♥ ... e l u c i a ... ♥

Back.

2011-06-07T01:44:00.001+08:00

I don't know what brought me back to this dead miserable blog of mine, but I must say, I'm happy I came back...

It's been such a long time since I last written/ updated this blog. Don't even know why am I writing this post right now,

when I know there won't be anyone reading it (unless I post it on Facebook or Twitter),

when I know there'll only be people trying to advertise their blog on my chat box,

when I know I can't express myself as well as some people do,

when I know my grammar is going down the drain *sigh*.

But then I remembered, that, she--mum--loves reading my blog. And I guess that's what brought me back here. Read through the whole blog, reminiscing, missing the times I had. And I realized, so much has changed. So so much...
It felt...

Different.

I feel different.

I love reading my Realizations and I am thankful post... :)

I could see myself being moulded, transformed, changed, by God THEN.
And I could see myself NOW.
I thank God.

I could see that He has indeed been faithful in my life, from then, till now.

And, I really AM thankful.

That's all I guess.

In case those who DO read my blog don't know what has happened,
here's a short video clip.
I'm sure it's obvious enough.

I love you, mum.
I miss you.

Will be back.
♥ elu

I am thankful.

2010-12-31T14:08:00.001+08:00

Well it's the last day of the year, so why not post blog a little right?

As the year of 2010 ends, all I want to do is thank God for all that he has blessed me with. Honestly, 2010 is by far the best year I had in the 18 years I lived. *smiles* There was much that I went through this year, a roller coaster ride. And yes, when there are ups, there are bound to be downs. That's life, no?

This year, :)

I've learnt so much about God. Things I knew but never understood. He's SO MUCH better than I could ever imagined, and there's so much more to learn, so much more to know, to understand, to GROW. He has never failed to show me His love, and his GRACE. He knows me better than anyone, HE knows me BEST. And yes, I love Him! I am thankful.

I've learnt to follow and obey what He wants for me. Choosing a path that I never wanted to, going through things I find so hard to cope with... But I know He has a plan for me, and I won't stop following, I won't stop listening to Him. I know He wants the best for me. I'm not "too young" to say this, and I'm not "too young" to follow His plans. I will follow Him eventhough someone said I'm "too young to understand these things", I know I'm not "too young". I am thankful.

I've gained friends that I know I could keep forever, the love they show me are just so, so heart warming, so hard to describe. They've always been there for me no matter what. They are there to support me whenevr I'm down. They are there to PRAY for you and with you. They try their best to cheer you up. And I know I could trust them. I love them! I am thankful.

I see and feel the love my parents show us, my brothers and I. Things they do to make us happy, things they do to make life best for us. They strive so hard to give my brothers and I the best. They understand, they listen, they love, they are the best. I love them. I am thankful.

I've learnt to be contented. You can't always get what you want, but you can be thankful with the things you've already have. I don't strive to compete, I strive to grow. I don't compete to be complete, I grow to be complete. I don't want to be the best, because I know I have the BEST thing (in the world) anyone could ever have, HIM. I am thankful.

I've let go. Grudges. Emotional bonds. I am thankful.

I've learnt that you can't trust everyone (which I tend to do so easily before). I see things people do, I hear things people say, just to get what they want. It's scary. It's sad. I'm much careful than before, I think more, observe more. I am thankful.

I've learnt that you can't please everyone. I've always try to please everyone. I use to hate myself for not being able to please them. You see yourself try so hard and nothing happens, you see yourself doing your best but it's never appreciated, it gets tiring. You might seen me write this billions of times, but I'm still learning, I live to please God and not men. I am thankful.

I've learnt that not everyone tries to understand, and to accept. It's difficult, but I am reminded, it doesn't matter. He knows, and that's enough. I am thankful.

I've got a new pet dog! She never fails to make me smile. She's been a blessing, really. I am thankful.

I've grown taller. I am thankful.

I've grown fatter. I am thankful.

I've changed my hairstyle. Since I had the same hairstyle(that's whay they say), I changed it! It's SHORT! And I like it. I am thankful.

Happy New Year. God bless. :)

STAND

2010-12-01T14:39:00.001+08:00

Dear dead blog,

Stand by Juwita Suwito, a song that I can relate to. :) She's GIFTED lahh! :D

Today feels different somehow

Living on the edge of a breakthrough

Yesterday’s pain of people’s disdain

Didn’t hurt me as much as it used to

Maybe I’ve found my remedy

I’m gonna stand up and walk my life

Not afraid to stumble and not afraid to fall

I’m gonna speak up, I’m gonna say what’s on my mind

Never mind if they don’t hear me

I know the ones who love me

I know the ones who will hold me

Just the way I stand

Just the way I am

Standing here on my stage

Why do your stares look so empty?

Strangers and friends all around

Funny how it still seems so lonely

Maybe not such a tragedy

I’m gonna stand up and walk my life

Not afraid to stumble and not afraid to fall

I’m gonna speak up, I’m gonna say what’s on my mind

Never mind if they don’t hear me

I know the ones who love me

I know the ones who will hold me

Just the way I stand

Just the way I am

I don’t wanna have to make pretend

And say what I will not want to

Not just to please you

I won’t be forced to love all who say they love me

But never know what makes me content completely

I’m gonna stand up and walk my life

Not afraid to stumble and not afraid to fall

I’m gonna speak up, I’m gonna say what’s on my mind

Never mind if they don’t hear me

I know the ones who love me

I know the ones who will hold me

Just the way I stand

Just the way I am

Like an EIGHTEEN year old.

2010-11-07T22:28:00.000+08:00

Pretty? :)

Like an 18 year old.

hahaha...

always loved this pic I took. Pretty flower.

God's creative ain't He?

♥

Realizations

2010-11-05T14:37:00.003+08:00

Hello.

1. Realizations Realizations...

2. Having to be in a "new environment" in school makes me realise how different I am. I'm not saying I'm better, neither am I saying I'm worse. I just don't feel like I get them(some of them at least). But I learn to get along with them, which I think is far better than not getting along and being an introvert. Imagine me being an introvert person, err? lol

3. I find myself wanting to please people just for the sake of pleasing them. I get myself into emotional breakdowns just because of it but now, I'm slowly starting to learn and realise that it ain't worth it. Especially to those who don't even care. But I can't help it, I think "as long as you treat them well, they will too" But I guess this world ain't like that. So I keep reminding myself, I live to please God and not men. And I'm still learning. But, pleasing God is to love one another too right?

4. I don't like competing or fighting for postions(in certain things that is), but I pressure myself too much. I tell myself relax and trust God, do my best and He will do the rest. But my mind tells me different things sometimes, like "you can't do it", "you suck no matter how much you study", etc. And those, I call them, LIES LIES LIES.

5. Having my finals now make me realise how great God is. Everytime I finish a paper, a verse from the Bible will instantly pop up in my head. And I know it's God speaking to me, and I love His voice far more than I love Michael Buble's voice. :D

6. I've been emo on and off lately cuz of a specific problem. And I realise it has been affecting me a lot but I never wanna talk about it. It's the first time that I don't talk to anyone bout it. I wonder if this is even normal.

7. I like people to ask me how am I doing. To me, it's them showing concern. Especially people that means a lot to me. I realise I get upset when they don't. And I unconsciously distant myself from them cuz I think they don't care(only to certain people though). But is it wrong to feel that way? I don't know. But I can't help it and I just don't see why I should change. Sorry if you're on my "close friends I care too much about" list. HAH

8. I either let go of things easily, or hold on to them like they're my life or something. Is this good or bad? I don't know. But this is actually the cause of realization number 6. It actually really annoys me, why am I like this. WHY!

9. It's not wrong to say "I love you" to more than one person, especially guy friends. =.= I only say "I love you" to people I love and I DO mean it. Judge me, I don't care. It's not wrong.

10 . When I can't sleep, I play "You Hold Me Now" by Hillsong United over and over again on my iPod. And I can immediately fall asleep. *thinks : He holds me in His arms, and I'm His babygirl.* :D

11. These few weeks saw me witnessing quite a number of ups and downs and things we're bound to experience someday, somehow. I realised I've matured a lot in these few years, and I thank God.

Not an emo post now, isn't it? :)

Maybe a little, but still.

At least I update this dead blog of mine.

Whenever YOU Remember

2010-09-18T23:06:00.002+08:00

RB.

When you look back on times we had

I hope you smile

And know that through the good and through the bad

I was on your side when nobody could hold us down

We claimed the brightest star

And we, we came so far

And no they won't forget

Whenever you remember times gone by

Remember how we held our heads so high

When all this world was there for us

And we believed that we could touch the sky

Whenever you remember, I'll be there

Remember how we reached that dream together

Whenever you remember

When you think back on all we've done

I hope you're proud

When you look back and see how far we've come

It was our time to shine

And nobody could hold us down

They thought they'd see us fall

But we, we stood so tall

And no we won't forget

Whenever you remember

-Carrie Underwood-

Hari Malaysia

2010-09-16T22:58:00.000+08:00

Just a video post. Liking this video, A LOT! =D

This what makes Malaysia, Malaysia!

Cute, don't you think so?

I love Malaysia, I really do.

Happy Malaysia Day!

Selamat Hari Malaysia!

Keluargaaaa.

2010-09-16T15:24:00.002+08:00

Well, this holiday ain't all about friends. No no no, of course not. To me, family comes first. :) The holidays won't be perfect without family! And I am glad to have such an awesome family. *BIG WIDE smiles* I don't feel like elaborating on what I've done with my family during the holidays, too ~~lazy~~, but I can tell you, I had a blast! =)

Family~

Was having Barbecue. Yummm~

With cousins. =) It's kinda easy to tell where were we in this picture.

Right?

And last but not least! The new addition to our family. Our babygirl(not literally of course), Chloe! She's all grown up now. 6 months in a few days time. TIME FLIES. AWWWW... :)

And!

BFFs :)

2010-09-13T18:10:00.002+08:00

I've been thinking a lot lately... A LOT. But I won't blog it out like I used to last time. Too personal. :)

Anyways...

The thought of having to go back to school in 3 days time is just... *sigh* Lets just say I dread "back to school" time. Yeah, school was awesome when you were in the secondary school life, but not anymore. If you're taking form 6, you're categorised as a Pre-U student, though you study IN a secondary school. And, it ain't easy. Tell me Form6/STPM is easier than A-Levels, and I'll come out with a list to prove that YOU ARE actually WRONG. Yeah, it's stressful, but like many people say, no ~~pain~~, no gain. *pfft*

Well, I'm not here to complain on how form 6 life is, but if I could, believe me, I can take days. Ask me personally if you wanna know. But then again, I might think twice on telling you. But no harm trying, right? lol

*getting on to the point*

I MISS MY FRIENDS!!!

There! I said it! If you could hear me, I'm screaming on top of my lungs. *Sigh!* I really miss my friends A LOT, you have NO IDEA. Specifically, my closest friends who are my besties which are my girlfriends, that will be, my BFFs. Every thing's not the same without them, but yes, I've just gotta learn to be strong. Right? And anticipate the next time they come home, to go for outings, and have another Girl's Night Out. :)

One thing great about living in a small town? You grow up together with your friends, you know them for MORE than TEN years, you fought, you cried, you laughed together. You know them like they are your siblings, and you're CLOSE. :) *happy sigh*

Yes, them. And I love them! :) Missing I-Jean here though.

I ♥ my friends. :)

OH! And I'm so proud of this! WOOTS!

:) I love taking pictures too.

[EL]u loves [EL]mo =)

2010-08-28T17:57:00.001+08:00

Elmo and Norah Jones!!! =D

ELu ♥'s ELmo :)

You and Me. :)

2010-08-27T23:09:00.000+08:00

They always want to know, what happened, why, how.

Well, answer's simple really,

Friends fight, but the relationship gets stronger when everything gets better.

Yes, we've fought.

Yes, we've never spoken to each other for a year or so.

Yes, we were hurt.

But,
Yes, through this,
We've experienced, we've learnt.
We've grown.

I cherish you, dear friend.
And I'm happy to start a new chapter, of our little story. :)
It'll will be better than the first. ♥

- Yes. I've experienced. I've learnt. I've grown. -

Cultured Pearls. Unique In It's OWN way.

2010-07-23T23:59:00.000+08:00

I've heard people say, us human beings, are like pearls. Well, aren't we? The pearl, being formed in the oyster. And as time goes by, it'll grow to become a beautiful, not to mention expensive jewellery.

Question, what is the difference between natural and cultured pearls?

Cultured pearl's defined as a natural pearl grown by means of controlled stimulation of the oyster. It's the not-so-natural way of producing a pearl by irritating the shelled mollusk (oyster). Pearls are formed inside the shell of certain mollusks, as a defense mechanism to a potentially threatening irritant such as a parasite inside its shell, or an attack from outside, injuring the mantle tissue. The mollusk creates a pearl sac to seal off the irritation.

Okay, enough of the scientific explanations. Somehow, I see myself as a cultured pearl rather than a pretty pearl that everyone admires... The cultured pearl may not be as beautiful as the natural pearl, but, it has it's own beauty, very much different than a natural one. Every cultured pearl is different and has a design of it's own, like fingerprints(lol)! =) Natural pearls, yeah, beautiful, expensive, but all the same. They may differ in size, they may be rare, but still, it just doesn't come to me as unique and special like a cultured pearl. This is just MY OPINION.

I categorise myself as a cultured pearl, hah. Though not as pretty as the natural pearl, not as beautiful, not as rare, and not be admired by EVERYONE. But, I'm certain, I know, I'm SURE, that there will be at least one person that admires me and loves me for who I am, for how I have been molded into.

And now, I ask myself, why should I be affected by what others say? Why should I hold back from being my true self just because I know I'll be judged by others? It's difficult when you know you're being judged, being the topic of people. I find it really annoying. But why let it hold you back from being YOU? I'm done doing that, I don't care if they don't like me just because of how I speak or how I act. I live to please GOD and not men. I may not be liked by them, I may be a freak in their eyes, but I know I am treasured by one person, GOD. He loves me, and I love Him.

I don't live to please people, but GOD.

You don't need to be extraordinary to change the world.

Just a Little Update

2010-07-02T22:38:00.001+08:00

Yes, I know I've not been blogging for a really, REALLY long time. Well, I guess I'm not as crazy as I once used to be. In blogging I mean. And I don't find the need to blog ALL THE TIME. Guess I've passed the level of wanting to blog everyday, writing nothing but nonsense. Haha..

Well, time flies when you're busy, no? Form 6 has been a busy, tiring, yet exciting ride for me so far. Form 6 is indeed tough, but I'm still surviving, not intending to give up either. =) I'm glad that I've finally got used to my class and classmates, and I'm handling myself well with others. So yeah... I'm happy with my life now, though it's hectic, but I'm thankful. Thank you, Lord. =)

So here's just a tiny update of my life right now. =)

Owh, we have got a new member in the family. haha. Little Chloe~

:))

ONCE and NOW

2010-05-22T00:21:00.002+08:00

Once, I really cared when you were acting the way you were.

You didn't speak. You were really, cold.

Got me thinking if whatever was bugging you. I CARED.

I wanted to HELP. But I couldn't.

It's okay, I told myself, I'll give in to your mood swings.

I want to be the best friend I could be to you.

But, I end up crying cuz it was only me that you weren't talking to.

Maybe you didn't notice you acted that way, but I did. They did too.

I asked myself, was I a bad friend? Didn't I give in as much as I can? Why me? Why is it ONLY me?

I blamed myself for everything.

Nevertheless, I defended you when they said bad things bout you.

I was called, stupid, ridiculous, a softy.

"Oh well, it's worth it." that's all I said.

But,

Much have happened to both you and me since then...

And yes, I was hurt.

And yes, I've learnt my lesson.

Now, when you act that way.

I honestly don't know how to feel.

Sad? Disappointed?

Maybe.

The friendship that we had, I thought, could be mended back.

But, it won't ever be the same won't it?

There was a hope there. But...

Guess I've got to wake up.

Emo? I know. Just thoughts.

- E -

Letters With Love

2010-05-14T16:58:00.004+08:00

Pretty. No? I've finally got it from *The Little Trinket Company*. :)

I've always wanted a charm bracelet which suites my personality and fits me well/perfectly. And I always have a thing for bracelets. Well I never seem to find one that I really really like, till I found out about Little Trinket. I've always wanted one of Little Trinket's charm bracelets, but never got to buy one. Then one day, when my auntie saw my status on Facebook saying I wanted a charm bracelet, she gave me a sum of money and asked me to buy whatever I wanted. Bought this as my Birthday present from her, and kept the remaining in the bank. =) She loves me, doesn't she? =D

Pretty? I love it. =)

Unicorn ~ A mystical and pretty creature. It doesn't exist, but with our imagination, it does. =) I love being creative, and with my imagination, I can. Having to express my creativity in any possible way, it feels good. AND! Cut the horn, and its a horse(LOL)! And I love horses. Haha. Anyways, I can say, my creativity plays a big part in my life, hence, choosing the unicorn.

Big Star ~ I guess I have a thing for stars. I've got earrings with the shapes of a star, I've got bracelets that has stars on it. I guess I just really like them a lot. =) I always love staring at the sky at night, looking at how the stars twinkle. Pretty, really. See the intricate detailing of the star? Unique isn't it? That, made me like it a lot.

Butterfly ~ The butterfly, a beautiful insect, don't you think so? Special too. From a caterpillar to a pretty butterfly, the old has gone and the new has come? =D To me, it represents hope, or a new beginning, flying wherever you want to go, where the wind leads you. Me, a butterfly, and God, the wind. Like *Little Bird*, wherever He leads, I will go. =) Why didn't I choose a bird instead? Well, I like the butterflies more than I like birds, actually. Hee.

Heart ~ The heart, ♥ , it delivers the simplests of messages. Doesn't it? The common one, LOVE. This charm, well, to me, it reminds me of the many people around me who loves me a lot. It means a lot to me, reminding me of each people whom I love and who loves me. So yeah, this is why I chose the ♥ , simple really. =)

Tiny Star ~ ME! =) A lucky girl, who has everything she needs and wants. Honestly, I'm contented with what I have in life. But, I'm gonna strive to be better, for myself, and for God.

♥

NEXT! :)

I've got a letter from ~~someone~~ 3 sweet angels. *big wide smiles* Their belated Birthday card to me from faaaar away. Okay, maybe not THAT far. But still, it was really sweet of them to send a letter to me. MEANS ALOT.=)

Thank you, Ei Jean, Iishan, and Shanice. ♥

What's a warepire? LOL. Don't need to know.

LASTLY! :)

I've got a letter from.....

ME!

Weird? Not really. Freaky? A little. =D It was from me during RBS, Residential Bible School. It really reminded me about the many many things I've learnt in that one and a half months. I'm glad I'm still persistent with the things I should be doing, but I know I still need to strive to be better. There are things I haven't achieve or done YET, but I know I can. =) It was really encouraging to receive the letter. VERY VERY encouraging. I thank God. =)

And... I miss RBS.

Letters make my day. :)

A Birthday/Thank You Post

2010-05-11T23:15:00.003+08:00

Finally, my Birthday post is here. =) It's more of a thank you post actually.

But first, let me tell you just a teeeeeny bit of what happened when Elucia turned 18. I repeat, 18. LOL

Well, we celebrated my Birthday and Mother's Day on the 2nd of May while my big brother was back, since he had to fly to Japan during Mother's day. Anyways, mum cooked an awesome, delicious dinner where everyone of us enjoyed. As USUAL. =) It was just awesome!

On the 3rd, my friends kinda surprised me and yeah, it wasn't a huge party, nor did a huge bunch of people came. Just a few, which was enough for me really. I LOVED it, I gotta say. =)

On my Birthday, which is on the 4th, well, I didn't do much but stayed at home and chilled. Had dinner with my parents and that's probably it. Well, you might think, this girl's 18th Birthday's REALLY BORING. Well to me, it's not. Warm, happy and I feel like I've already got everything I wanted. So YES. I'm happy, and I thank God.

: : : Now, pictures first with thank you list : : :
*gifts first, sorry. Cuz of the pictures.*

Thank you daddy and mummy for raising me up to be who I am today. =D They never fail to give me everything I want. Giving me MUCH MUCH MUCH LOVE, guiding me through life. Haha. I love them REALLY REALLY MUCH. There's much to say, but I'll keep it simple. =D

Thank you, 珊, Weng Yan, 彤, 燕, and 林子康 for the surprise.

谢谢你们~ 真的很感动~ =)

Thank you big bro and his girlfriend for this. LOVE it! LOVE them both! =D

Thank you Joel Wong for the honey he bought back from his Thailand mission trip. LOL.

HE REMEMBERED! =D

Thank you Derek[website] and Joy Joy for their present that arrived on Thursday.

And no thanks to Derek who keep making me confused on my Birthday. HMMPH

Anyways, LOVE YOU both! =D And stop fighting lah, you two. SERIOUSLY.

Ain't this t-shirt SUPER cute? =DDD

*If you think I'm cute, you should see my mummy and daddy*

LOL!!

A dress~ =D

Thank you Angie, Ming Yue and Timmy for the really cute present! =D It's okay that y'all couldn't make it up to Camerons, it's the thought that counts right? =) I still love y'all much! As promised, here's how the box was wrecked by Mr. Postman. =.= But! Quote Angie Yong,

"It was a cheaplak box so nvm... Lighter the better. LOL"

Haha...

Little Miss Chatterbox. =)

(very funny, Timothy Lee! NOT!)

Last picture of the post, =) Thank you I-Jean and Suji for the pretty bracelet. I'm so so so glad y'all bought something for me!!! Y'all are all the way down in KL, busy and all, and I could get a present from both of you! AHHH! =D

Pretty ain't it? Simple, and sweeeeet. =)

: : : The List : : :

text wishes :)

Ci Yi and Wen Juan for the early wishes due to having to go back to NS.

Joshua Foong

Jaclyn Yee

气健

Melissa Chong

Weng Yan

启华

Chi Yan

熊~

Kit Hoe

Edwin

Vanessa

Pastor Simon

Rachel HO

Aaron Tan

Kai Ma

Saravana

Michelle

Yung Tyng

Melody

Qian Wen

3 eeeee

Jian Wen

Ze Wen

Jasmine Wai

Kesav

Joyce JJ

JJ (Justin)

Chelsea

Bryan YONG

Extras :)))

Seong Kuan, for the Starbucks :)

Iishan!!! For the REALLY SWEET mms. =)

Jing Xian, for the Chinese Bible. =D

I won't write the people who wrote on my Facebook walls because I've thank them myself already. Plus, there's ALOT to write. And I've really gotta stop writing and go to sleep. SCHOOL TOMORROW. Yes, Form 6 started. =)

Nights y'all. :)

Mothers' Day & Back To School

2010-05-10T00:00:00.001+08:00

FIRST,

I gotta say,

HAPPY MOTHERS' DAY to all mummys out there! =)

Everyone, our mums have been a blessing in our lives.

Without them, we won't be the people we are today.

Like one of my church member said, the mothers are the backbone of each family.

So LOVE your mum.

Since this priceless gift God gave us,

Must from us one day depart,

Lavish her with love and kindness,

Real true love, with ALL YOUR HEART.

I love you, Mummy.

Yes, YOU ARE THE BEST MUM!

NEXT!

This is what you get when you have:

Your brother's books

friend's books (Audrey)

Audrey's sister's books

and

Audrey's dad's books.

There are like five huge files of notes too.

*blurrrr*

YES, I know, it's alot! What can I say? =)

I'M VERY THANKFUL, VERY!

I don't need to spend a single cent on any books because I have more than enough. =)

And I thank God.

And yes, it's finally here,

BACK TO SCHOOL!

Well it's bittersweet for me, really. I'm glad to go back to school for studies and getting more knowledge. YES! =D But, the fact that you have to study hard hard hard and face another major exam, well, UGGH! I shall not say much more. Haha. But I'm excited for tomorrow. Wish me all the best. =D

School girl again :)

One Year Older, One Year Wiser? NOT

2010-05-08T21:51:00.000+08:00

People say, "one year older, one year wiser." I don't believe that.

I had an awesome Birthday.

Much people to thank in my nex post. =)

Well,

Posts coming up soon :

Birthday, Mothers' Day, and the 1st day of school.

Maybe even some others. If I'm in the mood or have the time, that is.

- What's the greatest gift of all? God's love. -

Cameron Highlands is DYING

2010-05-02T17:29:00.005+08:00

It has been awhile since I blogged. Well, the urge to just blog = no more. Plus I don't see the need to blog blog blog everyday. HAH! Anyways, this issue has really been bugging me A LOT! See the pretty picture of Camerons below? Pretty ain't it? Forget the editing of it, it's still pretty. The rainbow IS REAL, by the way.

*click on the picture above to get a better view*

Credits to *Joel Wong* who took this picture when he came to Camerons.

And lucky enough to get a shot of a pretty rainbow.

He thanked God for it. =)

Anyways, back to the point. Now, why am I so annoyed? Here's a look of what people, the government to be specific, is doing to Cameron Highlands.

This was actually a mountain. Filled with GREEEEEEEN plants. TREES to be exact! Apparently they killed everything on that mountain for their own benefit.

Sadly I don't have the before picture. Anyways, I was shock myself when I saw this few months ago.

What have they done?

THIS!

KILLING CAMERONS!

I couldn't take a better picture of this. But this is another place in Camerons.

Why are they doing this?

Everywhere I go, construction sites are bound to be seen.

In my opinion, they are building UNNECESSARY things.

Cameron's getting HOTTER and HOTTER.

When I was a little girl, it was only 15˚C to 18˚C everyday.

It's 22˚C to 27˚C now. And it's getting hotter by the years. =(

What will the once beautiful Camerons turn to be in a few years time? A concrete jungle?

I can't stand imagining what would happen.

Will update a better post of this the next time.

:- No photo editings due to some problems.

I Am Ready

2010-04-17T23:17:00.001+08:00

Having to deal with much problems few days ago, I've finally got some happy time, with my parents. =) Yes, I had a haircut, and! We rearranged my room! I wanted to shift something into my room, hence, the major-room-rearranging-activity. =) Well, not really a MAJOR one, but I rearranged my bed, study table, and book shelf. Got rid of the bulky computer table that was treated as a book shelf. And moved in something that I haven't been playing for a really long time. YES, little Electone. =) I want you back, and I got you! XD

*big wide smile*

I figured, with this in my room, I can play it whenever I want to. And yeah, I really do miss playing it. I never treated it as well as I should, but it's still working so well! Little Electone is a strong thing! =) With the haircut and the "new" room, I'm all set to embrace my Form6 life. Yes, I have decided to just stay for Form6. Yea, it's gonna be the secondary school life again that I lived for the past 5 years. But I'm ready and I have decided. I'm embracing it with open arms! Lol. :)

I was really worked up about decision making but yeah, I've finally made up my decision to stay here for Form6. I was kinda bummed when I found out alot of my friends aren't staying back for it, it's almost a tradition really, that SMKSAS students don't stay back for Form6. Weird really. So I guess I'm one of the few. But nevertheless, I'll go. Trusting that it is God's will, I will obey and I will go, I will do what He wants me to do. =) I know God has big plans for me. YES! =)

I am ready. :)

Goodbye Long Hair

2010-04-16T11:31:00.003+08:00

First, mummy has been bugging me to get a haircut since...? I forgot. Well, REALLY long ago. I didn't want to, cuz I really liked my hair being long and straight, NATURALLY. =) Yes, me don't straighten me hair. :) But people around me has been talking about how long my hair is, how I need or can change my hairstyle, imagining how I'll look with short hair, etc. It's been making me think, I should really just have my hair be shorter just a little, to prepare me for schooling again. And mum said I'll look younger, that made me think twice cuz I've been called a 13 year old girl, not once but many times. The age ranges from 13 to 15. *=.=*And I don't want to look THAT young. LOL. But I decided to ~~chop chop chop~~ it off in the end. I'll let the pictures do the talking now. :)

*frowns*

This morning. When I realized TODAY's the day. LOL

::BEFORE::

Goodbye long long hair~

::AFTER::

Hello shorter hair~ =)

Well I can say she "chopped" of me "~~tail~~" and left me with this.

Had my fringe cut short too. :)

I'm happy. But I miss me long long hair.

*whines*

Aww JEEZ! It'll grow lah! GOODNESS!

So anyways, notice what I used to tie my hair in those pictures above? I remember someone special gave this to me and I haven't been using it. It's too pretty and special for me to use it so I just hung it there as a decoration. Thought I just use it for this time... *grin*

Pretty, no? Well it is to me. :)

Agents of Change

2010-04-15T15:38:00.001+08:00

If y'all were my Facebook friends, y'all will see my *Facebook status* today, yes? Wondering what happened in the morning that made me so furious? Well, I didn't get the sleep I needed last night. I kept waking up every half an hour till four in the morning. But after that, I finally could sleep well. And while I was in dreamland, finally enjoying it and not being in a nightmare, someone HAD to call me. Call, it's okay for me when it's important. But "SPAM" call me. Exasperated by it, I was cranky. Yes, I'm cranky when someone wakes me up with wrong and unimportant reasons. Ask few of my RBS friends, owh they'll tell you alright. The best, ask Ming Yue. *laughs*

Anyways, I texted my friend saying I slept late and I needed sleep. I was furious cuz I knew what was going on, she wanted to drag me out of the house for no reason, just for fun. And she didn't tell me or call me before she came. I went back to sleep and decided to be mad when I wake up. LOL, I'm such a weird girl. Woke up and saw a reply, turned out two of my friends were downstairs when she called. I was still as mad, but decided to apologized and said I fell asleep. Dad then called and said that he saw them downstairs before he went to work, he asked them why did they come, and all they could say was "nothing nothing". To dad, he didn't like people like that, he usually liked people to be honest with him, ~~typical~~ dad mode =). He told them I was asleep and apparently, they ignored and he went to work.

Point of this post, my devotion. My habit : wake up-devotion-wash up-breakfast. So yeah, devotion time! It was based on 2 Timothy 2:19-26. And this:

"Reject foolish and ignorant disputes, knowing that they breed quarrels."
[2 Timothy 2:23]

My friend texted me saying she was angry and all, angry stuff. I usually will get mad, but after reading that verse. I felt nothing but peace. =) It knew it was God. I didn't wanna quarrel, so I rather let her say whatever she wanted to voice out. I wasn't mad anymore, and I really thank God for that. Didn't want my day to be so emo like yesterday, and the day before. Being beleaguered by problems and troubles just ain't nice, AT ALL. *sigh*. But I'm happy that this verse helped. =)

Then it came back to this,

"If anyone purifies himself from these things, he will be a special instrument, set apart, useful to the Master, prepared for every good work."
[2 Timothy 2:21]

I was reminded that, we say we wanna change the world, but have we thought that we have to change ourselves first?

" What changes we would love to make

In other's lives, for Jesus' sake!

But first we must learn at His feet

The things that will make us complete. "

" Only when we are changed, can we be agents of change "

I thank God for speaking to me SO CLEARLY. :)

Annoying Present

2010-04-14T17:14:00.003+08:00

I got this yesterday from a guy through a friend. What's inside it doesn't matter. But looking at these two boxes, I'm just annoyed, furious actually. Why?

Got this present when I was busy yesterday night. My friend had to bring it to me. [Nevermind] When I went back up home, my parents saw and asked what was it and who was it from(as usual), I said "from the same guy". *You see, this guy gave me a huge homemade doll house before. And I guess dad's kinda annoyed by it already. Since daddy was already annoyed, he was kinda mad when he saw me having the two boxes. "Open it now, let me see what is it." I didn't. He didn't say much. Kinda got a talk from my parents later on. They just wouldn't understand that I tried my hardest telling that guy off. I DID okay? I just got scolded. And I cried.

I thought it won't be a problem when I woke up today. But problems arose, and it ain't going away soon. I didn't wanna tell anyone but I couldn't stand it, I can't stop crying. I decided to talk to my brother, and I never regretted that decision. Thing's are turning "okay" now I guess, still having a hard time. He's threatening me that if I throw his presents away, he'll kill himself. I can't stand this. Should I even care right now? ISH. I don't want anything to do with this guy. Like seriously. UGGH.

To every guy out there, just so you know, it's not sweet when you force a girl to have your presents. It's annoying. So be a sweet guy, don't be an annoying one. Yes? =)

I need a hug. :(

Sticky Rice with Mango + Whitney Houston Sound-alike

2010-04-12T15:52:00.002+08:00

Sticky rice with mango.

This is what I had for lunch today. Mum brought it back from my kaima's place. Apparently, it's those sticky rice(pulut) with mango and creamy coconut milk. Something new for me, and it tastes good. But it was really really filling.

Well was here to post a video my cousin, Jaclyn, asked me to watch. Guess alot of people are talking bout it, but I'll still share it here in case some of y'all haven't seen this. It's a must watch? =) A Whitney Houston sound-alike.

Owh! Am also here to share *Derek's Blog*, since I find his JPA post really interesting. =) Proud of him!

- I need to be inspired. Blog's getting boring. :( -

My Little Cuties

2010-04-06T16:51:00.002+08:00

I found this picture in mummy's phone, forgot I took this picture with them! This picture was actually taken during my Chinese New Year visitation to my auntie(daddy's sister)'s place. Her grandchildren were there, which were my cousin's children, which made me an auntie. Yes, I'm an auntie. What can I say? I'm the youngest in my dad's side of the family, and almost all my cousins are married and have children. Oh well... =)

Anywayz, aren't they cute? ESPECIALLY the one on my lap, with the red dress. Owh my goodness she is soooooo adorable! She's a really shy kid, doesn't talk much but she smiles and sings alot! *melts* =) That's the elder sister beside me and her cousin, my nephew. Wonder why the two sisters looks so different? Big sis looks like mummy(my cousin) and baby sis looks like daddy. And they are Chinlays*. Cute much? The last time I saw my nephew, he was four, and his in primary two now. They grow so fast don't they? Reminds me that I'm growing olddd too... LOL!!! 18 in almost ~~a month's time~~. NO WAY!

*Chinese + Malays = Chinlays (I made it up) XD

That's all I gotta blog about.

just about the Little Cuties in mah family. =)

Easter with a Challenge

2010-04-04T17:24:00.003+08:00

Has anyone of y'all heard about The Jelly Bean Prayer? =) It's a really cute prayer about the Resurrection of Christ.

Red is for the blood He gave

Green is for the grass He made

Yellow is for the sun so bright

Orange is for the edge of night

Black is for the sins we made

White is for the grace He gave

Purple is for his hour of sorrow

Pink is for our new tomorrow

A bag full of jelly beans colourful and sweet,

is a prayer, is a promise, is a special treat.

May the joy of Christ's Resurrection fill you heart and bless your life.

Cute! YES? :)

Now being serious:

Yes, Christ sacrificed His life FOR US. Dying on the cross, FOR US, FOR OUR SINS. He loved us SO MUCH. We who know this, who trust and believe Him, are saved. But what about those who don't? What about those who don't even know that this God that LOVES us so much exists? It is our responsibility, to reach out and touch the hearts of people, to tell them that HE exists.

We have heard many people testify about visions of Malaysia having a great revival. We have heard testimonies that our country, Malaysia, will be one of the countries who will be like Korea now, who sends Christian missionaries around the world. But HOW will these testimonies, these visions come true, if WE don't do anything about it? HOW will it happen if in our minds, WE want to leave this country as soon as we can because of ~~current political issues and controversies~~, or saying that ~~this country is just not good enough for us~~? HOW are we expecting this land to be healed if WE don't make a move to make a difference for God? WHY are we thinking of people in other countries when people in OUR country are crying out for the truth? This Easter, I am challenged, to reach out, to serve Him, to tell people about HIM in OUR country. I want my country, Malaysia, to be saved. WE can make a difference if WE work hand in hand, WITH CHRIST and IN CHRIST.

Yes I am. Are you?

Blessed Easter.

Prizes, Nostalgia and YUMMY Chocolates

2010-04-03T22:19:00.000+08:00

Well, I had to wake up early today to get ready for my school's prize giving event. Reached there at 10.30am and had to wait for two whole hours till I got my prize. Didn't do much in that two hours but I did get to catch up with few of my friends. Aaaaand! I was really happy to see one of the teachers I was closed to, Cikgu Maizon.

After catching up with friends, you realized time flies, REALLY FAST. It was like only yesterday when we first entered secondary school as juniors, being the innocent kids that we are. And look at us now, all grown up. Everyone going their own ways now, moving on to separate roads. It will never be the same again. No studying in the same class together, no whining about which teacher we don't like together, no being menaces to annoy and bully our teachers, no making noises and going whoopdeedoo in class, no more. It won't be us together as the Bestari-s anymore. Owh I'll miss you guys. =(

♥ 5 Bestari * Class of 2010 ♥

Check this out, one of our classmate submitted this for our school magazine. LOL

*click on picture to enlarge*

* * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * *

Honestly, when I got the invitation letter for this event to accept my prize as one of the students who scored well for SPM, I didn't expect it. 5A's! Come on! Seriously? But I guess I should be proud and thankful that I was one of them? Yeah... =)

It's an honour. :)

Last but not least, CHOCOLATES! *grin* Well, someone gave me a box of chocolates that I just HAD to take a picture of it. It's cute okaaaay? And I wanna say,

至你~

谢谢你给我这盒巧克力啦~

真的很感动~

虽然我们真的吵了很多次,但感情还是那么的好。

对吗对吗? =)

总之,谢谢你啦~

你说你从来没给他们礼物的,

所以我不写你名啦,

万一来到这里读到就不好咯~

看我多好! XD

Thank youuu~

Don't they look yummy? :)

Choco Lover :)

No Greater Love

2010-04-02T19:37:00.001+08:00

- The price of love -

God does not love us with a beautiful, holy vagueness, but with a love that staggered under a cross, that was hung between thieves, that met and destroyed death and paid to the full our debt of sin.

The nail-pierced hands of Jesus reveal the love-filled heart of God.

Would you go that extra mile for someone who doesnt care?
Jesus did.

Blessed Good Friday.

Gentlemen Don't

2010-03-30T16:30:00.004+08:00

I know I haven't been updating my blog lately. Well what's there to write when you are rotting at home? And yeah I maybe going out with friends, but there's nothing much to update you about. I really can't wait to go back to school! Owh, talking bout school, decisions made by my parents, I'll be heading to Form6 in May. And it's a 90% chance I'm staying back and I ain't going to MCKL for my A-Levels. *frowns* It isn't what I want, but I know it's the best for me. Well, we prayed about it and if Form6 is what GOD wants for me, I'll do it. Like *Little Bird*, remember? =) I trust HE knows the best for me and HE'll guide me through it. Yes, I say, TRUST GOD. =)

Well, I just wanna share this song from Gabe Bondoc! =) for those who don't know who he is, do check him out *here*. There's also *AJ Rafael*, who is also one of my favourites from YouTube. Sharing these just for fun. Gentlemen Don't by Gabe Bondoc. And a cover by them. Enjoy~ =)

Gentlemen Don't Cover by AJ Rafael

And they both did a Details In The Fabric by Jason Mraz cover :)

Bloggie ain't dead anytime soom :)

How I went from depressed to UBER happy

2010-03-27T19:40:00.002+08:00

I've been really moody these past few days and I don't even know why. Check out my *Twitter* and you'll see how moody I was. I cried so bad yesterday I could flood the whole Cameron Highlands! ...okay maybe that's over exaggerating. But, it was bad. I guess I couldn't stand it anymore when I couldn't sleep yesterday night, and I had to call someone just to be my victim, to listen to me emo. Got a prayer back instead, and it helped me so so much. Having to listen to someone to pray for me at that moment was just really really comforting. Thank you, PB scary fatso. And thank you LORD. =)

Waking up today, I felt a teeny better but I was still in my depressing mode. I told mum about it and was about to cry. I guess it worried her to see me being so... so not myself. It made me mad at myself again cuz I affected people around me. UGGH!

But! Things started to change when the clock striked 3.30pm. *smiles widely* I went to church with Josh and Steven for Sunday morning worship practice. It's indeed an awesome thing to worship God, even if you're practicing or not! We sang, I danced, we laughed, we jammed, we had SO MUCH fun! The feeling of just letting it all out, singing your heart out to God, praising Him and adoring Him, eeeeeeep! That feeling is just so... INDESCRIBABLE. And I thank God SO SO much! And I ♥LOVE♥ HIM with all my heart! Thank you, Lord. I ♥ You. :)

Anyways, I just wanna ~~say~~ write here that, our God is such a wonderful, awesome, SUPER DUPER great God(it'll take forever to list out how great is he)! And He never ever gives up on us. I'm just so so blessed to have Him. Wheeeeee...!

I ♥ Jesus. :)

Owh Yeah!!

Remember to off the lights at 8.30pm to 9.30pm tonight!

You Can Be Addicted To An iPod Touch

2010-03-25T21:04:00.002+08:00

Yay! I've finally met up with my friend which I have not seen for almost 3 whole months! Jing Xian! He's been to a "school" similar to RBS but longer, 3 months. And since he came home from it, I didnt get the chance to meet up with up cuz I was busy too. I've finally get to meet up with him yesterday night. I remember the last time I saw him, it was the 1st day in RBS. He came all the way up to say bye to me. :) Awwwww rite?

Went out with him and a few others on Tuesday night just to chill. It was really nice. But what I wanna blog about ain't this. Well, as y'all know I've got an iTouch from my brother during Christmas last year, *Christmas Post*. =) So I took it along just for fun. While catching up with JX, two of my girl friends were fighting to play some game in my iTouch. I couldn't stop laughing when Seong Kuan started playing. This girl that never plays video games was so hooked to my iTouch her face was practically an inch of a distance between the screen. I've never seen people being so hooked to the iTouch in my life. LOL. I mean, seriously, she was shouting and moving along with the character in the game. It was hilarious!

That's him! :) Uncle Tung.

See what I mean? ==

She lost the game. lol

That's all.

Blessed To Stay Up In Cameron Highlands :)

2010-03-23T16:52:00.009+08:00

While it's scorching hot down in KL. It's super cold up here on the highlands. :) Am I thankful? YOU BET I AM! *evil laughs* It's just a blessing to stay in Cameron Highlands, having free aircond everyday! Jealous much? =D

My house is an apartment up on a hill. So it's much colder here and you'll get to see much better views of God's wonderful creation! And also, having a bigger chance for mist to "fly" into your house on misty days like the pictures below. I took these picture down just wanting to post in on my blog.

This is the front view of my house, where you can see the slope up to my house. :) It's not much of a difference though but it's mistyyyyy.

*click on the picture to enlarge*

And this, is the back view of the house, which I took it from my room. :) Big difference, no?

*click on the picture to enlarge*

Yes! I am very very blessed to be staying up here having to experience such things. It's kinda sad that fellow RBS-ers didn't get to experience it while they were up here for a month. =S

It's VERYYYY cold today ;)

Earth Hour 2010

2010-03-22T23:29:00.000+08:00

Today's Monday, 22nd of March, year 2010. Five more days, many countries in the world will take part in what I feel, a very meaningful, great event, EARTH HOUR. Since I'm a nature lover, and! In conjunction to this event, I'm changing miss bloggie's outfit(template) into a black outfit. And my twitter and Cbox will be black too. =) Why you ask? Well, we are turning off our lights during Earth Hour right? It's black and dark right? That's exactly what I'm doing to little miss bloggie here. =)

This was my original template. Print Screen! :) Ignore the many Youtube tabs. XD

I'm fully supporting Earth Hour because I find it a really great event, like I ~~said~~ wrote just now. It's an event where everyone in the world take part to take a stand against global warming. Watching the video in Youtube really makes me tear a little. :) To see the whole world working hand in hand. It's just an 'awwwwww' moment for me.

Well, do sign up on their website *here*, or you can just click it at the side bar on my bloggie. I put it there so it'll be much easier for you. And also to be part of Earth Hour. :) Owh owh! You can also create your own virtual lanterns to show your support! Click *here* if you are interested. It's fun! And VERY simple. =D See...

When you click on the link I put above. You'll see this. Get Started! :)

Choosing of lanterns. I actually wanted the second one, but chose the fat one instead. X)

Colour & pattern choosing! Purple's my favourite colour so yeah. And I've put two trebal clefs on the side cuz I'm in the mood for singing lately. And it's cuz I love music too! :) Owh owh! You can also choose the colour of the flame.

After that, just write down your details and you're done!

A thank you note from them :)

Tadaaaaaa! =D *smiles*

So be sure to support Earth Hour! Sign up! It's just a click ahead!

Remember to off the lights on

27th March 2010 @ 8.30pm - 9.30pm

Love and take good care of God's wonderful creation.
Nature Lover :)

Monster needs love too

2010-03-21T21:37:00.006+08:00

Short post today! It's all about that cute little monster. :) Here we go!

Wondering what's this? Ain't it cute? Monster need love tooooo. :)

Aww... still wondering? A clue maybe? *zoom out*

AHA! Guess you already figured it out?

An AWESOME tee, for meeeee (rhymes! XD) !!

Ain't this t-shirt just so SO cute?

YES YES YES! =D

Well this t-shirt was given by my owh so sweet cousin, Jaclyn! She went to Jakarta for her Uncle's wedding. She went last minute shopping and she bought this for meeee! She was so happy that I loved it. Yes, cousin, I love it alot! You DO know me well, my taste, what I like.. Awwwww... Love you so much! Thank yoooouuuuuu~ =D

I ♥ my monster tee :)

Trip to KL

2010-03-20T14:04:00.003+08:00

Wonder why I've not updated my bloggie? Blame my brother's place for not having an Internet connection. *sobs* Anyways, I went to KL with mummy just for a break, she needed it alot, and I needed to go for the Education Fair. Well the first day there, we went to the Matta Fair, brother took us there just to look see. And I tell you, this country girl ain't used to the city life mannn. Why you ask? The fact of me seeing SO MANY people in that hall just freaks me out! I know these events will attract TONES of people and everyone will be squeezing around, but I've never experienced it myself before. And after experiencing it, thank you very much, but I will not wanna do it again! LOL I know, the country girl is 38. XD Well, bittersweet experience really. Got a good camera, Olympus µ1060, at a really good price, and now I shall proudly say "I've FINALLY got a good camera! Screw the old camera!! Lalala~" =D

Sunday, I went for the Education Fair at KLCC. Getting all the details of what I wanted was good, but it made me so confused in the end. It just wasn't my day and I really hated it. Being stuck between Form 6 and A-Levels, and I just know that my dream of becoming a dentist will just stay as a dream as far as I know. But I know there will be a more suitable thing for me. Will not talk anymore bout this because problem's already been solved and I feel heaps better compared to that day. Trust God I shall say? :)

Monday! It was a day where mummy and I spent time together. We watched Alice In Wonderland! Do the Futterwaken! *dance dance dance* It wasn't a movie that makes you go "gaga" over it but it was nice. Johnny Depp did a good job, as usual. =) After that was shopping. Bought two cute dresses, and LOVE it!

Well, Tuesday and Wednesday, I spent time with my RBS friends. =) I had fun! They took me to KLCC and then Time Square. The next day was at 1Utama with the others, had some Zamar meeting with Ming Yue's dad. I'll let the pictures do the talking.

Ain't he adorable? He was smiling. But didn't manage to take it though. But *melts* :)

Angie! ♥ her heaps! She's like my long lost sister. =D

There's nothing much to say... =.=

This was super funny. The two guys you saw up there, they were stuck in the public toilet. And this Ming Yue was laughing like crazy.

Bowling at TS. I wasn't good, AT ALL. I had fun anyways. :D

Gie Gie! :)

This was the only picture I took at 1Utama. With Sheng. She's leaving to Japan soon. *CRYS*

For more pictures, please click these two links below:

My Album

Joy's Album

Just wanna say:

" Thank you guys for taking me out to have fun. I needed it alot due to me being so stressed up cuz of study plans. Thank you y'all! Love y'all much! :) "

That's all I guess. I ain't got anything else to write about except post this video up for y'all to enjoy. The FUTTERWAKEN!

Do the Futterwaken! :)

Letter from the heart

2010-03-12T16:34:00.004+08:00

Waking up today feeling dizzy and kinda sick today. I went back to having my mood swings again. Nope, it wasn't the time of the month, it was just the Elucia's rare mood swings syndrome. LOL. There's nothing much to blog about today, but this:

I've received a letter from someone today and I was so excited about it! Why you ask? I love receiving letters from people? I mean, not those formal ones, but the informal ones. From friends or loved ones... The feeling of getting a letter is just awesome! Beats emails and texts. =) It might be old fashioned, takes a few days for it to reach the person you sent to. But it really means much much more than e-mails or SMSes, to me at least. *hint hint* XD

Anyways, it was from my RBS mission team supervisor, Esther. It wasn't a letter to be exact. Just a tiny handmade bookmark. Yeah it may be small, but it's from the heart, I know it is. And the things she wrote on it... It means so so much to me! I'm so happy I got this from her!!! It really made my day. Goodbye Elucia's rare mood swings syndrome. Lalala~

Thank you, Esther. :)

♥ Elucia

SPM results

2010-03-12T15:37:00.001+08:00

HERE IT IS! *drum rolls*

It wasn't what I wanted. My tiny little aim was actually 8As. But I just gotta be happy with what God gave. Right? I know He has great plans for me and I just gotta accept and prepare to embrace what He has installed for me. =) I wasn't myself yesterday, after getting the results and all. And I really thank people around me who tried so hard to cheer me up. And I apologize to those who were worried cuz of me not being myself. But yeah, I'm looking forward. Ain't no turning back now. Wheeeeeeee...

Owh yeeeaaaah! I'm really proud of this. =) I remember before SPM, I was telling my friend that, if I don't get 1A for my 1119 paper, I'll kill myself(kidding). And look what I got! 1A!! Which is the best! My teacher told me not many people got 1A for this, even the straight As students? And I'm one of them! So yeah, I'm proud of this! =D

And one more thing. I'm really thankful for everyone who said that they are proud of my achievements. I didn't really understand why did my family members(including aunties and uncles), church members, even friends, said that they were proud of my achievements, but I'm thankful. Even though it's just 5As, they were rejoicing and they were just so proud of me. It really cheered me up alot. Thank you~ :)

Being contented with what GOD gave me :)

Little Bird

2010-03-09T22:59:00.002+08:00

I was suddenly inspired to write this. It just came all of a sudden. So yeah... Here we go. =)

Little Bird

Oh Little Bird of tiny faith.

When will you fly?

Never stepping out of that nest of yours.
Don't you know that there's a world outside?

Don't you wanna try?

Don't you wanna fly?

One day,

Little bird gained the confidence she needed.

She realized, there's a bigger world beyond this nest of hers.
Where she can experience things beyond what she can imagine.

Yes, she wants to see it.

She, wants to experience it.
But she, is still afraid.
Terrified, more to say.

There Little Bird was, standing at the edge of the tree branch.
"Don't look down! Don't look down"
That was the only thing she could think of.
she was feeling apprehensive about flying.
Her mind, full of fear that she might die if she falls.
What if she didn't flew right? What if she really DIES?
Agitated by that thought, she decided to give up.
"NO!" a voice, she heard.
"I am here. And I will be with you. Do not be afraid.
You can do all things through ME."
She knew it was HIM giving her assurance.

"Here goes nothing!"
She closed her eyes and jumped down from that brach,
Lifting her wings, she tried to fly.
She flapped her wings like how she sees the others do.
She opened her eyes...
And little did she know, she was flying!
A huge adrenaline rushed through her body.
Exhilarated she was.
The wind, invigorating.

Spreading her wings to the sky up above.

Little Bird soared freely,
knowing something's lifting her up.

Holding her in His arms.

She knows, that it is He.

That oh so wonderful and mighty person,

strong and powerful,

with great wisdom and strength,

ruler of the skies, the earth, and the seas.

Everything is of His control.
He has power above all things.

He is one who LOVES, He is one who FORGIVE.
He is her God.

Since that day,
Little bird wasn't afraid to fly anymore.
She loved to fly.
That feeling of knowing somebody's always there,
showing her and guiding her to where she's flying to,
the assurance He gives whenever she's flying,
Yes, she loves that feeling.

Little Bird has grown so much in her faith.
And she knows that she need not be afraid to wherever HE leads her to,
It may be a place where the sun smiles brightly,
where the wind blows lightly.
Or a place where it's dark and cloudy,
where the skies tremble with anger.
But she knows,
Wherever HE leads her to, HE has HIS own plans,
And HIS plans is what HE wants best for her,
and she,
She will go.

Little Bird has decided,
wherever HE wants her to go,
She will go.

And Little Bird, would be me.

written by
Elucia.

A post just for you~

2010-03-08T19:58:00.009+08:00

Ahhh... Have been working on this post for like, the whole day. =/ I'm BLANK. Where do I start? Let's start with this then,

Dear Suji ~

Happy Happy HAPPY Birthday, girl! You're officially 18! Wheeeee... *hugs* =)

It's been great knowing you since, when? When we were still babies and haven't even knowing we existed in this big big world. =) Rite? Thank you so so much for being such an AWESOME friend! Though we have our problems sometimes, we ~~fight~~ for no reason, we give each other ~~cold wars~~ for stupid reasons, we even ~~hated~~ each other at one point in our lives. Looking back, it was really childish of us. LOL.

But look at us now! We're still the best of friends! We've grown so so much in our relationship together as friends. Yes? And I'm truly blessed to have such a friend like you. =D

I can never say thank you enough for the many many things you've done for me. Staying by my side whenever and wherever, being the caring friend that you are, trusting me with your problems, cheering me up when you know I need it(especially before and after every paper during SPM), and much much more!

Thank you so much, Suji.

Know that I will always keep you in my prayers. And remember, there's always a God up there that loves you very very much. =)

Love you, girl! Mwah!

- A friend is one who strengthens you with prayers, blesses you with love and encourages you with hope. -

"Don't walk in front of me, I may not follow
Don't walk behind me, I may not lead
Just walk beside me and be my friend."
~ Albert Carnus

(: Elucia :)

Where do I go?

2010-03-06T17:35:00.005+08:00

Anyone who follows me on [Twitter] will know I've been kinda emo lately. Well the reason is this... Because of my future studies! It's been bugging me alot! To know that there's so much to find out and to worry about, it's just really frustrating! I'm so confused. But I guess after having my parents to pray for me yesterday night, I felt a whole lot better. =) But I'll just blog about problems that I had and how it was solved.

Here's the thing, I'm thinking of taking A-Levels to further my studies in Dentistry. Ok, problems?

~~TIME~~ - I was really having a dilemma on choosing the intakes for this course because I felt March was too fast for me. It's super rushing and I needed time to settle down in KL first, right? And, July is like... Let me put it this way, it's far far awaaaaaaaaayyyyy and I CAN'T STAND the fact that I won't be doing anything in those 3-4 months of waiting. Yeah, you might be thinking, "Get a job, Elucia!" But uggh, I don't know... The funniest thing was, my friend said I can do lots and lots of scholarship interviews in that four months. That made me laugh. =) But NO, I don't want to. And! July intake will be like Form 6, no? I mean the duration. Why don't I take that then?! But I don't wanna! Hmmmmph..... I'm such a baby, I know.
Problem solved
I'll be probably taking the March intake, at least the earlier one. I just can't wait any longer. I NEED to study. Im such a freak. XD

PLACE &MONEY - This is really bugging me the MOST. My first choice was HELP University College. But I don't really know now. I've found other colleges which has lower tuition fees compared to HELP. Like Methodist College KL, or UCSI. And alot more lah. What Derek told me was to find a cheap college and study there, get good results and go for my dentistry. Haha.. It makes sense, no? =) I guess this is the reason why I wanted to find a cheaper college. Another is that I don't want my parents to spend so much just for me, I don't want them to be tied down by it. They say they aren't, I guess it's just a daughter's thing lah. lol
Problem Unsolved

~~SUBJECTS~~ - Since last year, I already knew the subjects to take if I wanted to further my studies in dentistry was Biology, Chemistry, Physics and Maths. But due to not liking Physics, I guess I was lying to myself the whole time. I thought I could do Further Maths for my A-Levels instead of doing Physics. I kept telling myself it's ok to not take Physics. THINK AGAIN, ELUCIA!! See what I found out few minutes ago. *smack head*

Check out what I highlighted in RED. IMU says : "All qualifications should include three science subjects (Biology, Chemistry, Mathematics, Physics)." I've been to IMU's website for so many times and I can't believe I didn't notice this. And I think of what Colin Kirton said in RBS...

DBB!!!

meaning: DON'T BE BLUR!!

Yeah. I'm too blur at times. So yeah Problem Solved! =D

Mum also said that,

" I just feel that we should just wait for your results to be out 1st. Then we'll know what's next for you. Ok? Trust God, girl. "

Yes mummy. =)

And I remembered this,

" I am blessed to be stressed! =) "

by Lue Jun Yi, Supervisor of Team MacClay, RBS 2010

I guess that's all. But one thing I'm really glad is that I have parents that really care so much for me. They prayed so hard for me yesterday night when they saw me crying(yeah I cried), and it was really comforting. I love them so much!

Also those who cared so much for me, and helped me. Seong Kuan, Derek, Ming Yue, Ian, Iishan and Arjund. Although some did nothing much, but still, it meant ALOT to me. =) ♥

I thank GOD so so so much, for giving me them! And I know He wants the best for me, so yeah, I'm lifting these problems to Him. And I trust that he will bless me. I love you, Lord. =]

:: I'm blessed ~ ♥ ::

New Chapter Of Life

2010-03-04T20:41:00.003+08:00

Yes it's a new blog, same address. =D

I'm still working on how my blog's gonna look like.

So yeah...

Reason to why I wanna start a new blog?

No specific reason actually. I just feel that I'm starting a new chapter of life. Which I know, will be much much better WITH CHRIST. I'm ready to embrace whatever is set in front of me. I mean, my story won't be interesting if there weren't any ups and downs right? Plus, I know I have God. And! In God we trust. =D

Here's my old blog if y'all wanna check it out. It actually means much to me since I started it in year 2008 till this year. Lots and lots of memories. But I'm ready for a change! So goodbye old bloggie, HELLO new bloggie! The old has GONE, and the new has COME. =D

* http://eluoldbloggie.blogspot.com/ *
I'm ready to start a new chapter of my life. :)