It felt...
And I could see myself NOW.
I thank God.
In case those who DO read my blog don't know what has happened,
here's a short video clip.
I'm sure it's obvious enough.
I miss you.
Will be back.
♥ elu
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Dear dead blog,
Stand by Juwita Suwito, a song that I can relate to. :) She's GIFTED lahh! :D

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Hello.
1. Realizations Realizations...
2. Having to be in a "new environment" in school makes me realise how different I am. I'm not saying I'm better, neither am I saying I'm worse. I just don't feel like I get them(some of them at least). But I learn to get along with them, which I think is far better than not getting along and being an introvert. Imagine me being an introvert person, err? lol
3. I find myself wanting to please people just for the sake of pleasing them. I get myself into emotional breakdowns just because of it but now, I'm slowly starting to learn and realise that it ain't worth it. Especially to those who don't even care. But I can't help it, I think "as long as you treat them well, they will too" But I guess this world ain't like that. So I keep reminding myself, I live to please God and not men. And I'm still learning. But, pleasing God is to love one another too right?
4. I don't like competing or fighting for postions(in certain things that is), but I pressure myself too much. I tell myself relax and trust God, do my best and He will do the rest. But my mind tells me different things sometimes, like "you can't do it", "you suck no matter how much you study", etc. And those, I call them, LIES LIES LIES.
5. Having my finals now make me realise how great God is. Everytime I finish a paper, a verse from the Bible will instantly pop up in my head. And I know it's God speaking to me, and I love His voice far more than I love Michael Buble's voice. :D
6. I've been emo on and off lately cuz of a specific problem. And I realise it has been affecting me a lot but I never wanna talk about it. It's the first time that I don't talk to anyone bout it. I wonder if this is even normal.
7. I like people to ask me how am I doing. To me, it's them showing concern. Especially people that means a lot to me. I realise I get upset when they don't. And I unconsciously distant myself from them cuz I think they don't care(only to certain people though). But is it wrong to feel that way? I don't know. But I can't help it and I just don't see why I should change. Sorry if you're on my "close friends I care too much about" list. HAH
8. I either let go of things easily, or hold on to them like they're my life or something. Is this good or bad? I don't know. But this is actually the cause of realization number 6. It actually really annoys me, why am I like this. WHY!
9. It's not wrong to say "I love you" to more than one person, especially guy friends. =.= I only say "I love you" to people I love and I DO mean it. Judge me, I don't care. It's not wrong.
10 . When I can't sleep, I play "You Hold Me Now" by Hillsong United over and over again on my iPod. And I can immediately fall asleep. *thinks : He holds me in His arms, and I'm His babygirl.* :D
11. These few weeks saw me witnessing quite a number of ups and downs and things we're bound to experience someday, somehow. I realised I've matured a lot in these few years, and I thank God.
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